Hello internet world. I am here, typing in some stuff for you to read. Every time I post something I am still amazed that people like it or choose to follow me. Maybe you just do it for some weird purpose I don’t know, or maybe you actually think what I say is interesting.
I don’t follow too many blogs, although I have a pretty big collection on tumblr going on. Mostly hot guys and puppies… I think after I post this I will start to follow some blogs on here with some more… MEAT. I honestly hate reading, but I do love a good article. I need to be more aware of the world and open my eyes to some new ideas and situations. If you have any ideas on blogs you want to recommend hit me up!
Today started off a very beautiful day. The sun was shining, I didn’t have to wear my winter jacket and life was good. Now I am sitting here, post exam, with a glass of white wine while it sadly pours outside. What happened?
I am not worried about my exams at all. I could pass all my courses right now without needing to study, so I don’t have stress. I felt like I rocked the one I had today, which is why i was dancing on the street this morning with my sunglasses on! I think it is mostly the weather that caused this shift in mood.
I cannot continue typing without some uplifting music, hold on.
THERE WE GO.
On the job market front I have only been getting rejections slowly coming in. But I did get a really cute message from one place, “One thing that really struck me as I read all of the applications was the level of enthusiasm, not only for this project, but for the marine environment as a whole. Please stay enthused, our seas need you!” Cute right?
Hopefully I get some good news soon. I really don’t want to go back to living with my parents (although I am leaving my college apartment in a couple weeks…). I am a lot calmer about the situation than I was before, but it still makes me a bit bummed. You can’t blame a girl. I am stubbornly independent and long to just be on my own. No parents, no roommates, no boyfriend… Maybe a dog.
I really want a corgi.. They are so cute! To just emphasize the degree of my longing let me tell you what my daily day dreams are. My bachelorette apartment will have a blue and white colour scheme, blue walls and white furniture with sandy brown accents on curtains and rugs. This will make me feel happy like I am at the beach every day anytime I am home, a true home feeling. My puppy will be a tri-colour female Pembroke Welsh Corgi with mostly black on her face and back. I am undecided with a name as it is personality dependent, but I like Yoshi and Mishu (Polish for teddy bear).
Sigh. Life work in my favour? All I want is a job so I have have my own life. Is that so much to ask? Maybe… We will see. There is still time, and like I said I am remaining calm about it.
Dating wise… Like I said… All I want is a dog in my life. I AIN’T GOT NO TIME FOR BOYS. Not even a man if one where to walk into my life. Maybe I am selfish, but I am too preoccupied with my shit right now to want to even think about anyone else’s shit.
Plus, I love being single. However, I keep finding myself having sex with guys, which I thought were under the impression that that’s all it would be, who become attached and clingy. Why? Can’t you see I am a strong independent woman who is busy starting a career to make time for you? We had our fun and now its done. Please- get it.
This has been particularly bad with one friend I recently… Yeah. We have been friends since we were 14 and he finally made it out of the friend zone (Congrats buddy!) into the “friends with benefits when I say so” zone. But he ENJOYS spending time with me, and he wants to HANG OUT MORE. It is like some weird backwards situation and I feel like I am those douche bag guys who fuck around with girls.
Well.. I kind of am. After one long term relationship after another the only person I want a relationship with is myself. I want to love me, I want to only take care of me, and I want to work on my future ALONE. Sure, a girl gets a little lonely in bed every once and awhile, that’s when these boys come in. I make it clear. At least I think I do… Maybe I am just a heart breaker. Even with my boyfriends I break their hearts… But after a year which probably stings them more.
I like change, and I like me. So in my experience it will be better for me to just focus on me. And my future corgi soulmate.
Maybe this is the wine talking. I am going to stop here and follow those blogs I said I would. Hope you enjoyed this, if you read it.